I can hear his voice
as if it were yesterday....
It was my first epic
fall...
And of course, I
called my Daddy for encouragement...
Sympathy...Support....
What I got was...
“you run enough
mountains , you are bound to fall down sometime...”.
I had scree rash up my
back right leg... my butt... lower back... shoulder and arm...
And I was hurting....
Even better...
I finished the run...
Bleeding...
Stinky...
And exhausted..
Only to end up finding
a sign at the bottom of the trail reading...
“caution.. BEAR IN
AREA”.
I still get a bubble
of laughter each time I think about that adventure...
The thrill...
My first summer
chasing mountain trails...
My first summer of
freedom...
Finding myself at the
end of each exhausting adventure...
Learning to “run
free”...
And again tonight, as
I lay in my bed... pouting...
Those same words echo
in my memory...
“You run enough
mountains... you are bound to fall down sometime...”
And fall I did....
It was the classic
kind...
A creative...
Crazy...
Once in a lifetime
tumble...
A face plant....
Covering you from toe
to neck in glorious mud...
With no one around to
youtube...
Yet, the innocence and
hilarity of it has long since past...
And I sit here...
restless... longing...
After 3 weeks of
treatment and one week of approved yoga...
A torn knee.... and a broken spirit...
There are moments I
feel 100%....
And I’m dying to get
back out there and strive for my carefully laid out goals...
And there are
moments...
That lead into days...
That feel like
today...
A sharpness...
And swelling...
A constant pain to
remind me that I am not there yet...
And it’s in those
moments that I struggle to remain focused...
Positive...
Cheerful...
It’s in those moments
that I want to just let it break me down...
I want to succumb to
the disappointment...
The pain...
To cry...
Yet,
They are only moments...
And along with the bad
there are many good.... encouraging....
So I will re-focus my
energies on healing...
I will remind myself
that tomorrow will come...
And I will look to the
freedom of that summer...
The summer I first
learned what it was like to fall down...
I will shed the
stresses of always improving for others eyes...
And I will once again
learn what it means to...
“run free”