Am I ready? MLAAMB Log 7

My life as a Mountain Bum

Am I ready?

March 7 2016—Log 7

Its 12:49 on a Monday....

I spent the morning doing work stuff, race stuff, and personal stuff...

Including hacking at my dogs unruly hair....

Both girls are sleeping peacefully despite the 80’s feathered look they are sporting...

My window is open.... Letting in the spring like mountain air...

Lady Mac and Squaw look beautiful in the sunlight out my window...

A view to live for....

That is what it is...

Yet inside, I feel like crawling into my room... pulling the covers over my head....

And just hiding....

My life changed this weekend....

And instead of having work to bury myself in, I am forced to face the reality of that change.

I have come to realize this weekend, just how easy it was to numb myself to feelings when I was on call 24/7....

When I had so many people relying on me....

Now...

With me...

And my girls....

Alone in my condo....

I realize...

I spent to many years chasing a dream...

A life....

That didn’t exist....

We get one chance at this life...

One chance to love...

One chance to live...

Once chance to leave a legacy....

Life goes on...

Can I figure out how to move with it???

Can I learn to leave my past self behind...

And accept the life that is in my future....

Can I give what I’m supposed to give...

Laugh without restriction...

Love without boundaries,

Be a person of value...

And friendship....

I think so...

I had great examples before me....

I will follow them...

I will move forward...

Step by step....

Look out world...

I’m coming....

And we al thought this mountain move was going to be easy ;)