I used to believe when I was a little girl,
That some day I would meet the most amazing man...
And we would fall deeply in love...
And I would be happy for the rest of my life....
At 36 years of age...
I can honestly say....
I have loved....
Deeply...
Passionately....
And without regret.....
And in this moment I am learning...
That happiness is only what I make it....
I have failed miserably at relationships....
And learned that Cinderella doesn't always get the glass slipper....
but I've also come to a deeper understanding of who I am through it all.....
every tear...
every heart ache....
every joy...every memory....
Life has shaped me into an amazing being...
A fabulous mystery...
Of silliness...
And passion...
And a well of deep love for those who I choose to bring close....
In this moment I have learned to be still...
to listen to the sound of the breeze rustling the tree's...
to hear the quiet voice on the side of a mountain...
Bringing me peace...
And strength.....
I have learned to savour every breath....
To celebrate just being alive....
I have learned to value, cherish and respect myself....
And I have learned that a person who doesn't value, cherish and respect me in the same way is not a true friend.....
Yes... I get lonely....
There are times I long for a set of arms to hold me close at night....
A warm kiss...
a tender touch....
The one person to share this crazy adventure with....
Someone to tell my secrets...
And laugh at my jokes....
a smile at the finish line....
Yet I have come to realize....
That without that...
I'm ok....
I used to believe as a little girl...
That one day I would fall in love....
And I would be happy for the rest of my life....
In all my dreams...
I never expected....
The person I'd fall in love with would be me....
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