I have many of these moments... I mean let's face it...
When it really comes down to things...
I don't know nearly as much about anything I claim to....
It's just reality.....
I'm book smart... I can read...
I learn...
I retain...
I'm a fount of useless knowledge....
Just ask anyone who has had the pleasure of me en-lightening them on one of my various useless topics....
But...
When it comes to life....
Well....
I am lost....
There is no manual on how to screw up a friendship....
But after 36 years of experience.. I am certain I can probably write a new volumes....
along with....
How not to bring up what you feel is lacking in your relationships...
And my personal favorite...
don't read too much into it... because there is nothing more there to read....
And don't forget the timeless classic...
You are the master of your own rejection....
Yet....
After all these years...
and countless journal entries I'm still treading water....
The one thing I've come to understand is this...
When it comes to life....
No matter what I'm trying to figure out...
There is only one solution for this girl....
And it is sitting patiently at the front door....
In neon green.....
Waiting for that morning embrace.....
Where we lace up and hit the road... to see where that new trial might lead us....
Yes...
It's been too long....
Too much change has happened in my life...
And now....
I am ready to go back to learning...
Loving...
And dealing with life the only way I know how....
tomorrow I will lace up...
Not to be a faster... better runner....
But to be that girl...
The one who I know I can be....
The person...
Friend...
And lover...
I desire most to be....
And at the end of my run....
I will know that that greatest thing I will have accomplished for the day is once again finding my center....
The gift that comes from knowing...
there is nothing more freeing then a country road...
The sound of wet gravel...
and the morning moon light....
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