Just one of those day's....

It was like a bad run....
The morning of race day....
Waking with Thick leg's and a heavy heart....
Lacing up knowing you had millions of miles to go....
And not knowing how you would get there....
How you would make it through.....
Each movement more laborious than the next....
The finish line reaching further and further away in the distance....
As you being to quote as many ultra affirmations you can muster....
The mind gives up before the body....
Pain is weakness leaving the body...
Just put one foot in front of the other...
Little Steps to build a whole.....
You have trained for this...
You can handle this....
You are STRONG......
and yet....
You know in your heart of hearts...
That today....
Today is just one of those bad run day's....
With each step you feel defeat....
The pain radiating through every last muscle....
The feeling of deep set fatigue....
Knowing that there is no aide station to bring you new life....
No support team cheering you on....
No fresh socks....
No little treats....
Your stomach turns with the last meal you ate....
Needing more...
But not being able to take it....
You tell yourself you will make it.....
And as you near the end....
You cry...
Tears of relief...
That is trial is over....
Fatigue consumes you...
And you feel nothing more then the deep pain of failure....
Your body aches from abuse....
Your mind goes numb....
And you long for nothing more than a strong pair of arms to carry you home....
And tell you everything will be alright....

Yes....
Today was one of those day's....
Like a long....hard....bad run.....