Friday.....
The most
feared day....
A day of
truth.....
Naked...
Brutal...
Honest....
Truth....
No
hiding....
No lies....
No, one
more bite, I’ll work it off tomorrow....
Fridays
tell the naked, naked truth....
Of
success...
Of
failure...
Of honest
weeks, and sinful moments....
Fridays....
I started
this program 2 months ago.....
Strict,
clean eating....
Training....
And naked
Fridays....
This week I
looked to Friday with excitement.
I had upped
my training intensity.
I had major
successes in the gym and in the conditioning class I joined....
My diet had
been flawless....
And I
knew.... Friday would bring me rewards....
Beyond
imagination...
I was ready
to blow my mentors mind with my numbers....
Inches
lost....
Pounds
melted away....
And then
came Friday...
Without a
change....
Except the
pounds that added themselves to my weigh in...
The inches
remaining stubbornly on my body....
Every
muscle screaming, “We are sore.... and for what????”
My heart
breaking a little as I sat down to write my weekly report....
An email
filled with frustration....
The anger
at being the fat girl...
The one who
doesn’t take the moment to indulge with everyone else...
Who stay on
the strict meal plans...
Who does
her best to train with her whole heart...
To leave
the gym...the trail... with nothing left...
100%
spent....
The girl
who took all wine out of her house to ensure there would be no temptations....
After a
long morning of mentally defeating myself....
I
realized....
I didn’t
loose....
There was
no defeat.....
The scale
happens sometimes....
But this
week....
I know...
I pushed
harder....
I got
stronger....
I got
faster....
I found my
vision again....
The belief
in my goal....
My passion
was re-ignited...
100 time
over....
And as I
prepare to get my ass handed to me in my “Dojoyoass” conditioning class I
know....
I’m on
target.....
I may never
be a skinny girl.....
But I can
be a strong woman...
A woman of
endurance...
Self
value....
And strong
spirit....
So....
Even when
the numbers may fail...
This
athlete’s heart still wins....
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