I am my own biggest advocate of my singleness....
I am one of those people who has embraced the upside of single-hood....
And made it look almost appealing to many....
Sure there are downsides....
I get lonely... I'm human after all....
Sometimes I long to wake up and be smiled at by someone who didn't eat their poop for an after dinner treat...
And often I long for that strong pair of arms to wrap around me at the end of a really long day.... someone to hold me up when I'm falling down....
Someone to laugh at... and with.....
That one person to tell my everything to....
With that said.... it is in those moments I can easily remind myself....
I am strong enough to hold myself...
I am self sufficient....
I don't wake myself with my own snoring.... (Why bother when Jade does that with her schnauzer snoring)....
If I go to bed with my make up on, with out brushing my teeth.... or in a post run funk because I'm too tired to shower it doesn't matter....
If I decide supper is raw veggies and a glass of wine no one complains....
I can sing in my house.... and dance in the morning with the dog's....
And my favorite... if I decide I want to just pack up and run away for a day I have no one to clear it with.... I just go....
Yet, in all this "amazingness".... I have become complacent.
Somewhere along the way, it got to be too easy to not shave my leg's....
To just toss on my running gear and hang out because it was comfortable and took less effort....
I just let myself go...
Without realizing it....
I mean seriously... are the dog's going to complain about my hairy leg's or tell me I have a panty line?
Recently someone challenged me to start shaving my legs again (I have blonde leg hair.... seriously I should only have to do this once a week...). I actually was shocked by this at first... then embarrassed.... then I realized... Maybe this is for my own good....
So I went out and bought a body polish... My favorite lotions.... my favorite perfume lotion....
and razor blades....
And thus began my "daily shaving experiment".
This was 10 day's ago....
at first I just felt stupid.... Like I was trying to attract something.... or someone....
that I was trying too hard.... Then I realized... I missed the way my skin felt after being polished and moisturized.... That the sheen of my favorite lotion made me feel beautiful....
I kept this up for 10 days (and counting).....
And other thoughts started forming....
It's time for a pedi-cure... something I had not done for months.... I used to go every other week without fail....
Time for some new lip gloss....
Highlights....
And yesterday.... I realized it had been two years since I really bought myself some fresh... feminine... and some what sexy attire.....
I tossed aside my frumpy work clothes for a new wardrobe of beautiful skirt's... linen short's... fun sleeveless tops and cute blazers....
Today I noticed.... I'm standing straighter.... I'm smiling more....
I smell amazing... and my skin is so soft.....
For the first time in years I feel beautiful.....
and it's for nothing more than just me... wanting to feel beautiful....
Yes, I still don't have those arms to support me....
The person to smile at in the morning....
someone to laugh at my retarded morning dancing....
and after wrestling with a bracelet I've realized a whole new challenge to being single.....
But I have also come to realize that you don't need a relationship to take time to invest in yourself....
If you are going to feel beautiful and proud you should do it for no other reason than to feel beautiful and proud for yourself....
Go out and buy a matching lingerie set....
put some light sparkles on your exposed skin so you glow...
Shave your leg's....
you deserve to feel this good...
Heck... I even used my body scrub pre-run this morning.... and put on mascara to chase the mosquito's with while I did a loop on the trail....
You never know when you might sprain an ankle and be rescued by some calendar worthy EMS man...
All because 10 days ago someone challenged me to shave my leg's.....
Where ever you are.... Thank you.... you have given me a precious gift...
My self respect....
I didn't even know it was missing!
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