Letting go.....

I spoke about you today...
Really spoke about you...
not the typical glaze over....
but real things....
How you made me feel when we first met...
How beautiful you were.... 
How I fell....
deeply...
Head over heels...
Until I could see nothing but you...
How my family originally fell for you...
How foolish we all were....
Your smile...
your cute white hat...
Your jeans....
The way you walked into a room that made my heart stop.....

I spoke of you...
With out anger or hatred...
With out bitterness or sorrow...
but just because I finally could....

For the first time...
I let go a little bit...
Just enough....
Because I was ready.....

And I know someday soon....
I'll be ready to let go a little more....
And I will not feel powerless...
I will not feel empty....
I will not be scared...
I will not be ashamed...

For you were a lesson I needed to learn...
A stepping stone to make me a better me....

And although I still have a way's to grow.....
I am a better person because I spoke of you.....