Cold bath water... and letters that go nowhere.....

I have cold bath water....
It's one of those strange side effects that come from trying to construct the perfect...
Conversational...
And Witty...
Yet sharing some convictions and observations...
While being jovial...
Type emails...
Not one of those deep emails where you eloquently get your point across...
Dear Joe,
Your a moron.
xoxo
Lisa
Rather one of those emails that comes from spending an awesome day...
Just loving life....
And wanting to gush it all out....
A conversation meant for the ears of a good friend...
A cherished one....
You know... that one person that you long to share your moments with the most.....
Sadly....
This has left me with deflated bubbles...
Cool water...
And the longing for my nightly ritual of un-wind....
Soften....
And feminize with amazing scented lotions....
So you can go to bed feeling beautiful...
And smelling fantastic....
It's a Bizarre ritual...
But it is mine none the less....
I so look forward to my nightly bath....
The bubbles...
The scent freshly selected....
The glass of wine... (or tea)....
And a good book...
Something I can lose myself in for a few moments.....
As I soak my tired body in a pool of fragrant heat....
But tonight....
I have cold bath water.....
And as I sit here in my bed....
With my replacement heating pad...
Silky Jammies and some beautiful perfume....
I am not fooled....
For I know...
I have missed a sacred ritual....
My loyalty to the bath is wavering...
Being replaced by my desire to reach out and share about my day.....
You'd think I learn....
As this is not the first occurrence....
But once again...
On this very night....
I have cold bath water....